During my first semester of high school, I lost seventy percent of the hearing in my left ear. It was not out of the blue -- I had developed a cholesteatoma on my eardrum, causing my hearing to slowly disappear over time. At first, I thought it was funny. I still make jokes about not being able to hear people, and say, “Sorry, what? You’re talking into my bad ear.” I do this to make people laugh, but losing my hearing was not something I could always laugh about. Being a year-round swimmer and water polo player, my health is vital and taking time off from practice is unideal. The surgery took me out of swimming for three months; this felt like a lifetime. Watching my teammates thrive from the sidelines, wishing I could be with them, made me resentful towards myself.
Entering my junior year, suddenly I found myself in a position of leadership, both in the pool and in the classroom. As a starter on the varsity water polo team, the responsibility for setting a positive, hard-working tone for all of the other girls landed on my shoulders. I learned to show up to practice on time, be the first one in the pool, and give one hundred percent during every practice and game. In school, while I was still less vocal during large group discussions, I learned that I could take charge in small group activities. By doing this, I began to understand how loud I could be leading through actions. Instead of doubting myself, I began to show confidence in my ideas. This adjustment taught me the value of hard work and perseverance. I can’t say I wish I had never lost my hearing, but I know this obstacle led me to approach each day with vigor and determination. I am still learning to use my voice more. In losing my hearing, I also lost a lot of self-confidence. Nonetheless, this obstacle in my life has made me a better athlete, a better teammate, and a better person.