When I was in fourth grade, my oldest sister started playing lacrosse. I would go to her games and tournaments, and I was very fascinated with the sport. I grew up having some really bad anxiety and anger issues. My dad signed me up for a local club to start learning the sport. As practices went on, I found out that I was actually really good at the sport and it was helping my anxiety and anger. My coach decided to move me up to play with the older girls. I felt like I could just forget everything and just focus on having fun and playing the game. I got better as the years went on and started working really hard.
As a freshman, my doctor informed me that I had severe depression and a hearing disorder called Auditory Processing Disorder. This was very hard for me in the school environment and I began to fall behind in school. When high school tryouts came around, everybody was asking me how I am so good, and I simply said, "I just forget everything and have fun". I made the varsity team as a freshman and this was a big step for me. It was going to be faster and more aggressive, but I used it to make myself better. Playing the sport just made me feel an indescribable way. It helped tremendously with my anxiety and depression. That is when I truly fell in love with the sport.
The beginning of my sophomore year was the hardest time of my life. My oldest sister had some drug problems, and this led to having to put her in a mental facility. About a month later, she agreed to get professional help at a rehab facility. I was absolutely heartbroken and empty after this. I fell way behind in school and wasn't getting the best grades. My anxiety and depression shot through the roof. But this is when I used my love for lacrosse to escape from everything else happening in my life.
The summer of 2019 is when I decided I wanted to play lacrosse in college. This upcoming school year I will be a junior and I plan to catch up on school and raise my GPA, while also working on my lacrosse skills and IQ.